Lately I've had many plans, thought about going to different places, leaving my home town, doing further education courses and just making a change in my life in general. Have I done all those things? No. Will I? Probably not. I don't feel disappointed in that as I think what is important is the part of my plan which I will end up doing.
I have been teaching for 4 years now and love the job. I have to say though, that I am not a fan of the work load which comes with it. When I'm in full swing towards assessment time or end of term or whatever other deadline I have then I become tired, irritable and edgy Missy. This is obviously not a great time for those around me or for myself. However I keep up with it because I love what I do. I love making a difference to a child's life, being a role model which they don't have/need and generally contributing to the well being and happiness of others. What's bad about that? Nothing and that's precisely why I keep going.
However, the idea of 'What comes next?' got me thinking. What happens when I reach the point where I have to feel like I have a life? After all helping others is great but at the expense of my own happiness should make me question the choice, right? In relating this to the question then I would answer.. The same. I will keep doing what I am doing but look at ways to change things which aren't as dramatic as changing career.
I am looking at evening courses or some kind of study classes to give me another focus point rather than just school work. I sometimes crave work, just researching and writing an essay or finding out new stuff. This would give me an extra focus and more of an incentive to get through school work quicker.But is this one of those past seems better than it was moments?!
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I have also looked into working away in an International school. A lot of these schools have a better work life balance which would allow me to have time to myself and also to indulge that time in my hobbies. My summer adventure is going to help decide this one. Do I want to move away from friends and family or am I content travelling around during my holidays? I don't know but after nearly 3 weeks without friends and family I am sure I will be more equipped to look at this question more carefully.
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Getting a routine. I feel that some friendships have taken a backseat this past year due to personal reasons which got the better of me and also work which got the better of me. I have to try and make sure I make time to see people. After my weekend with an old friend I have realised just how much I miss hanging out. Myself and Miss GG discussed the idea that we should start some monthly get together which we always stick to regardless of work, partners etc. Basically it will be our time. It would be lovely to get that sorted as I think you only get out what you put in.
So, what comes next? I'm not 100% sure but I do know that I need to try and not let work take over my life. I don't want to start resenting such a worthwhile and fun job. As for my other thoughts I don't know, maybe they will be just that - thoughts - but whatever happens they are pushing me to make some kind of life change somewhere.
For the near future I am making things happen by visiting places I've always wanted to go. That seems like a good start :-)
What about you?
What comes next?
