Survival

It has been a long time coming but I am finally on the mend. I have spent a week literally on bed rest and sofa time but it is starting to pay off and I am now beginning to realise how unwell I have been now I am feeling better. This morning I was advised (and signed off) by the doctor for another week to get fully better. My stomach was in knots thinking about informing work that I wont be in. As I've stated in previous posts, I am a little bit of a workaholic and the idea of not being in the workplace makes it difficult due to lacking control.

I have finally made the decision after the past couple months that I need to look after myself, something I am not very good at. More often than not I am too concerned with everyone else that I put myself second.

The need to give often outweighs.... [Source]

After doctors, calling work and sending in my sick note I came home and went to bed - 3 hours after leaving it. It was that moment when I realised that I was not doing the wrong thing. I awoke 4 hours later, still unable to move myself out of bed so I did what any sick person does. I lay in bed, surfing Pinterest. I stumbled across something which made some things extremely clear:

Survive... [Source]

The pressure we put on ourselves, in our daily life to be perfect sometimes takes the focus away from ourselves. In my job I always urge the kids to "Focus on yourselves" and I know this is not something which I have practised myself. The guilt which I have felt for not being in work was immense but now I am seeing things clear I have realised that I have done the right thing for sure. I am surviving and this is something I forgot to do after the challenges of the past year. I lost myself. It's time I find me again and begin surviving and then living.

Have you ever had that 'Eureka' moment when you realise that you haven't been taking care of yourself?

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